Of Being Selfish

always, and always..

I always bind myself with the idea of never putting urself first,

only those close to me knows how much i have sacrificed in friendship

Only those " really close" would know me,..

My mom always said...

"Dont be too over-nice with people, because people will hit on u"

that is one i always find myself objecting 

because i love my fren...

But these days

Cant help myself but to find that there are some truth in her advise

Im dissapointed with "them"
It's ok to be happy n free, but at least try to be understanding

And For U

It easy for u to say

How i have changed

But has u ever wonder what changed me

Its easy for u to spurts

how i had turn away from you

but do u even know how harsh is your words?

It's really easy for u to claim im not being with u

but have u even appreciate these days i've been here?

It's easy for u to argue im not with u when u had problems

but do u even listen to my advise over n over?

It's easy for u to blame me for me of not respecting them

But have u ever think whether they gave me the "least" respect!?

Its easy for u to claim im running away

But do u ever realise that's what ure doing all this while?

I dont really care what happen

or 

who's to be blame, 

or 

who really cares bout me

and u dont have to wonder to whom i rely on now

because 

the only thing i need now

IS ME!...

i needed room.... because im 

DISAPPOINTED...


I'm always here, but just needed time,
even if the smallest bit

P/S : I miss u FS!!